Here i go again (back to the normal routine)

Listening to: "They don't care about us" Michael Jackson
Reading: "Marley and Me" by John Grogan (again)
Watching: Futurama
Eating: A piece of chocolate cake
Drinking: Sparkling water
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Here i go again! The third school week's already started and now i've come back to my daily routine: school-lunch-homeworks-dinner-little freetime-sleeping. So, as you see, my days are not as empty as they used to be.
In two days i'll start my english school, to get prepared for the C.A.E. examination. I won't have the exam this year so i'm not worried at all, but sometimes i get bored. I like english but when you have to sit down in a class and talk about the dayly topic, which is always decided by the teacher, makes me hardly bare it. Also because when i'm in the class i always think about the school homeworks i'll have to do when i come back home. Absolutely no happy thoughts!
But there's something new: now i got a "boyfriend". This fact is persecuting me. Yeah, it's because i just think about him as a friend, but he doesn't know. I'm just a coward and i'm afraid of losing him forever. In few month he's become my best male friend and i used to love it. But know i feel our relationship is totally different: he seems so far from the guy i met in Telford last summer. I should tell him the truth but i don't want to hurt him, and i'm sure i will.
Yesterday he was like to start a quarrel because we don't go out so much as we should as couple. I've told him that my priority now is school and he thought i don't like going out with him -.-''
That's a bit childish, he knows i have to study a lot this year. He told me we never met at school during the breaktime. That's not true: i always look for him, but i always find he's chatting with other girls, his classmates. I'm not jelous but i don't want to interrupt them...you know, to be polite. I know they think about me as the girl who steal their mate. The first time i greeted him they looked at me like "Who the h*** is she? And what the **** does she want from our friend?". Pratically, every breaktime i try to say hello to him but he always has these two girls around him, who are not likely to leave him alone with a stranger. It just sucks!
Well, bed time has come. Hope i will succed in talking to him tomorrow!