Now we're back to the beginning

"Now we're back to the beginning
it's just a feeling and no one knows yet
but just because they can't feel it too

doesn't mean that you have to forget"

This few lirycs of the song "The Call" rapresent what i'm feeling right know. I'm simply terrified because i don't know what is waiting for me in this school year. I'll attend the 4th year of high school so i should not feel so scared, i know how things work. I don't know.... maybe is the fact that i don't think this school is right for me.... my father told me not to worry, it's not worth. In two years i will choose my way, all with my strenght. The real problem is that i should know "that way" but i'm not totally sure about it. I have this little idea which travel in my head but i don't want to write it here. God, i'm so confused! I wish i could have a fixed idea for a moment! Not always a changeble one.
I have to understand that my purpouse is to pass this year. One things per time, just one, and then go straight to the following one. I think i should learn a way to relax my mind, it may be useful in the future. No. It will! God, what the *** i'm writing tonight? Let's hope!