Julie is getting better

I'm so glad to announce that Julie is back home, and i couldn't be happier. I can't say she's healty because she still suffers for her leg (the x-ray showed a break between the tightbone and the hip); what's more, she had an infection, fortunately nothing serious, to her lungs and she's not able to breathe properly at the moment. 
The good news are that i can cure all her problems: although i can do nothing for the breakbone, i can give her painkillers and antibiotics. It will be complicated since she's not used to be handled, and will surely try to bite me, but i'm determinated to make her feel better. The bone will be fixed naturally: a new elastic tissue will cover the break; a surgery would be impossible. 
After six days of theraphy she's really getting well, and what's important, she doens't feel any pain. How can i say that?! Well, when i came home yesterday, she was hanging around my bedroom, running, jumping, climbing... i pratically couldn't stop her! I still find difficoult to give her medicines (it takes about an hour every evening O_O *dies*) but she's ok now and that is what matters most. 
I would like to thank all the Deviant Art's people, and my boyfriend, who supported me in these two days. I couldn't think in an optimistic way and i was seriously thinking i would have lost Julie forever. She might not be a loyal or a friendly pet like a dog or a cat, but she's been part of my family for 5 year, and i'm really attached to her. As you have seen, just the idea of loosing her made me feel terrible, but thank you again for your support! 


School is making me busier and busier i just want to stop studying for a while! It's still Novemeber but i have already had enough and i don't know what i will do in June if i go on like this. I'd like to draw more but i can't find time to do it. Plus, i still have to think about a portfolio and i should start writing my application letter NOW, if i want to take a chance with Farnham's UCA. God, i study all the subject, exept art! (Just history of art, so no drawing practise for me).
On Fryday i'll leave for two days: i'll go on a kind of school trip to Geneve, to visit the physic's laboratory, C.E.R.N. I really need two days off!

Feeling terrible

Apart from the fact that i cannot find time to study all the subjects for the tons of tests my teachers keep on planning, i've got a problem with my female chipmunk Julie, which is making feel devasted.
Two days ago i noticed she was lame on the left back leg, so my mum called the vet  for a visit. After two hours of maths tutoring (i would have had a test the following day), i went to the vet with my mum. He visited Julie and said the real problem was not the leg but her lungs. He added that she wasn't breathing normally and that was not because she was nervous. The second time he hold her, she was riscking a breathing failure and the vet put her face near an oxigen mask because he had noticed her tongue was becoming blue. I was shaking and nearly crying... i remembered the tragic end of Ghiro, the male chipmunk who died 2 years ago after an infection. I started to think that Julie would have died as well. The vet told that the situation was a bit dangerous and since he couldn't understand what was Julie's probelm he suggested doing an x-ray, so that who could better have a look at her leg and lungs. The problem was the anaesthesia: it was a risk because she couldn't breathe properly: although it wouldn't have lasted more than 5 minutes, it was dangerous, but there were no other options. We left her there and i'm now waiting for the vet's response, but i don't feel fine at all.
When i came back home yesterday, i was crying and could not concentrate on studying. I didn't have dinner and i went to bed very early without finishing what i had to study. Today i dind't go to school because i knew i would have got a bad mark, since i hadn't study properly. I spend the morning sleeping and crying and after breakfast i tried to start studying philosophy for the oral test i'll have tomorrow but i was a failure. As yesterday evening, i wasn't able to concentrate on the book and i ended up crying thinking about Julie.
I migh be extremely pessimist, but i don't think she can get well. I feel weak, and i eat just because i need energy to study, and i must not miss another school day.
I can't stop thinking about her, but i know i have to forget her for a fucking school mark.