Well, well well, lots of things have happened since August!
First of all, I'm officially a Foundation Diploma student at Farnham UCA! The moving process took so long and there's always a new problem which comes out every week, so, it's hard to say I've settled in, but I am. The place is simply lovely, and since it's a small town in the countryside, it's very peaceful, and, what's most important, safe. I don't regret having left a big city, although I usually spend my Saturdays in London. Here in Farnham you have everything you need to leave and you don't have issues with traffic, smog and so on. People are everything but stressed, so they usually happen to be very kind and talkative. Being an Italian in a foreign country is not bothering me at all, since I live in an environment where international people are more than welcome, and not only here at campus!
I can say my real issue if friendship, because I've come to know some people, 5 girls in particular, who were in the same group I was, but they all lived outside Farnham, and have their own life and business to carry on. This means that, outside lessons, I don't have lots of people to talk with.
I live in a "flat" with 3 people, but they're not so eager to spend time together, which is very sad. I'm probably the only one who talks with everyone, but we do nothing together. It's something that really bothers me, cause we've been living under the same roof for 2 month and we hardly know each other. We rarely talk, and when it comes to dinner time, everyone keeps eating in their own room. I've talked to other people who live on campus and this doesn't happen with them. When we first met, things weren't like that, but then the other girl who lives with me often invites her boyfriends and spends time with him, another boy has his best friend living in the student village, so they're stay together, and the last one...well, he has some friends to go out with but he's usually alone here. I think he's the one I mostly talk to, but he's been very quiet recently.
I thought I had started quite well because when I had to collect my room's keys, I met a girl from Cyprus who was going to attend the same course. We've made friend quite quickly and even went to dinner out in a restaurant, along with our parents who weren't so talkative…at least my dad, since he has never studied English properly and was therefore limited.
So, everything was nearly perfect, but then other students from Cyprus and Greece came to study here, and so she literally left me apart to stay with them. I don't blame her that much, cause I know it's difficult when you're in a foreign country all alone, but at least she could have introduced me to those people. She happens to spend time with me only when she's in need of something, and I just hate it. I don't mind helping others, but if someone looks for me just when he needs help and avoids me the rest of the time, well, I got pissed off a bit.
My mind is mostly busy with school stuff during the day, but it's when it comes to weekends that I really feel alone. I'm still looking for someone who doesn't have things to do on weekends, cause people who lives here, usually have families, friends and so on, so they always have something to do. I really want things to change, and quickly. There're still some Italian girls I haven't met and one of them, who has the same name I have, really wants to meet me. I can't wait to, the problem is that nobody seems to know where they live and I've never seen them at uni. Plus, I don't go to parties and such cause I get stressed instead of enjoying my time. It's because I'm extremely shy, and I don't drink, which makes people disappointed, English people in particular. I also hate being in a company when everyone gets drunk and you're the only sober one around you. I've never drunk, but it wasn't a problem for my Italian friends, for I used to join them anyway because what mattered was being together. Here it seems that the only party's aim is to get drunk.
On the other side, the course is great. In the last 7 weeks I've been attending a different subject every week, which meant lot of work for the assessment. The environment is very challenging and teacher always force you to think out of the boxes to avoid obvious. It's difficult at first, but then it becomes quite normal, and you get used to discard the first two ideas you get, since they'll be banal.
The first two weeks I was feeling like a fish out of water, not because I regretted my choice, but because everyone was coming from an art school and they were all used to draw quite quickly without drawing rubbish, and use a wide range of materials. I was…ah…lost. I couldn't remember the last time I had used a brush and paint, so the first drawing I did were shameful, but the very next days I could use a brush without many problems. Oh, and I've rediscovered watercolours too! Honestly, I'm really having fun using traditional materials, probably more than digital ones.
I completely had to change my attitude towards art cause before joining this course, art for me was Deviantart and then History of Art. What a jerk I was!
Luckily for me, my sense of art has developed, which makes me look more at real life and resources. Also the researches I had to do for the assessment were really helpful. Having and understanding of art practitioners (mostly modern ones) is always good, since you might happen to find them both inspiring and good for references. I don't mean copying their style, just finding out how their experience might help you in your future career or what can you learn from them. Then, the more I go on, the more I realise I know nothing about film and animation which is a lack that I should fill as soon as possible. Again, researches for the assessment helps me a lot, but they're probably not enough for me.
Last week I had an assessment and I received a good feedback from who was to become my Moving Images and Photography teacher. He told me I have some strong drawing skill (oh...just to specify: there weren't any wolves' related draings, so…yeah, I can actually draw something else!) and that I have a very animation-like style. I was very pleased when he said it, since no one related to the art field has ever told me something like that. Well, maybe it is because I knew none working in the art field. Anyway, that was very good for me and surely made me more self-confident.
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